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  He raised his gun toward me.

  I heard Charlie yell out, “ No…”

  He threw himself into Dev, Dev’s gun firing off wildly, Charlie’s eyes widening.

  They struggled for a few seconds, the gun kicked away, my brother’s face twisted with pain and rage. I pointed my gun, tried to tear them apart, but I couldn’t get a clear shot at Dev and I was fearful my next shot might kill him before he told me where Maxie was. There was blood around, but I couldn’t tell from whom.

  I tried to pull my brother off and get my gun on Dev, but Dev grabbed an iron poker from the fireplace, hurling me against the wall, and swung it against Charlie’s head. Then he pulled himself to his feet, turning his gaze on me. “I gave you every fucking chance in the world.” He swung the poker at me and I dodged it, my ribs on fire. I wanted to kill him more than anything I’d ever felt, but I couldn’t.

  Not until he told me what I needed to know.

  He was like some savage animal made even stronger by being wounded. He charged at me, grimacing. Then he hurled himself on top of me. He grabbed my arms, trying to wrestle my gun away.

  I knew my life was only as good as my strength to hold on. But he was lit up by some animal fury, his hands tightly wrapping around mine, my fingers pressed against the trigger guard. I began to feel the gun inexorably make its way toward my chest-my strength eroding, my side feeling like it had been scorched by flame-and I fought with whatever strength I still had to fend him off.

  But I was losing.

  “I don’t know, I thought you were a smart guy, doc.” Dev grunted, eyes ablaze, his blood smeared across his shirt and mine.

  “Where’s my son? ” I said, straining.

  My chest tightened and my eyes grew wide as the muzzle kept shifting toward me.

  I no longer had any certainty whose fingers were on the trigger. I was terrified that it would go off and that my son might never be found. I had already been about to die once today. Now it was happening all over again.

  Dev’s large hands seemed to envelop mine, my life, Maxie’s life, in the balance. I felt with rising alarm his thighs shift over mine, his fingers about to squeeze, my breath held back in panic for what I was sure was the inevitable explosion in my chest.

  Please, Jay, please, you can’t let him win.

  Then I heard it go off.

  I screamed-braced for the sensation of the bullet tearing through me.

  I didn’t feel it.

  Then I heard another shot.

  Dev groaned, his viselike grip on me beginning to relax.

  I looked up and saw my brother, one hand pressing a red hole in his own stomach, the other holding Dev’s own gun.

  Dev reached for his back, grasping at it like he was trying to pull a knife out of himself.

  “Move away, Jay,” Charlie said, his eyes like a furnace. “Just get away.”

  “Charlie, no. Don’t! ” I begged him to stop. “He has Maxie!”

  Dev’s face twisted, his flannel shirt matted with blood, and he let out a groan and fell off me.

  I looked around. Susan Pollack was sitting on the floor with a shard of wood through her throat, a hand stuck to each side.

  And Gabby… Poor Gabby … My sad gaze fixed on the sight of her slumped against Susan Pollack’s legs, her eyes completely still and wide.

  Charlie sat holding the gun. “I’m sorry, Jay, get away. He killed Evan. I want him dead.”

  “Where’s my son?” I yelled at Dev.

  His eyes rolled toward me, gloatingly.

  “Where’s my fucking son! ” I said. “Tell me, or I’ll let him kill you, so help me God.”

  Dev smirked and spat a glob of blood out of his mouth. Wobbly, he pushed himself up to a knee and grinned. “Tell your brother to take his shot, doc. Then we’ll see where it goes, huh? We’ll see who wins.”

  Pressing his thigh and reaching around to his back, Dev winced in pain and staggered toward the open door.

  Charlie raised the gun again, and I could see him trying to summon the strength to squeeze off one final round, his aim wavering.

  I begged him, “Charlie, please, no…”

  He trained the gun on Dev’s midsection. He strained in anguish to find the power. His eyes lit up with hate.

  Then he just silently set it down.

  Dev grinned and turned to me. “Enjoy the ride, doc.”

  Coughing blood, his hand reaching for his back, he slipped through the door.

  I went over and took the gun out of my brother’s hand. I saw a hole in his chest that was bleeding badly. He needed attention fast. I checked the wound on my side. It was ugly and red, but I was pretty certain nothing vital had been hit. Charlie looked toward Gabby, who was slumped against the wall next to Susan Pollack with an open, lifeless gaze.

  I said, “I have to go after him, Charlie. Just hang in there, please…” He stared back blankly at me. “Keep pressure on your wound. Here…” I put his hand there. “I’ll be back as soon as I can. Don’t die…”

  He nodded, eyes sagging behind his wild hair.

  I ran out the door. It was dark, the courtyard erratically lit. Some people had come out of their apartments. “ Call 911! ” I shouted. “There’s people dead in there. My brother’s barely alive. Help him! ”

  My abdomen was on fire and when I pressed my hand to it; blood leaked out.

  Don’t let me bleed to death.

  Twenty yards ahead, I caught the sight of a figure staggering into the darkness. I followed, spotting dots of blood on the pavement. He was probably headed for the woods across the street along the tracks, but I knew there wasn’t far he could go. My biggest fear was that he would die-that I would find him rolled on his back, glassy eyed-without telling me what he knew about Maxie. I headed after him onto Division Street. I saw him up ahead, one arm hanging limply, dragging his leg.

  I pointed the gun in his direction and squeezed off a shot above his head. “ Stop, Dev . It’s over. There’s nowhere to go.”

  He took two or three more steps, unsteadily. Then he did stop, at last. He turned slowly, blood oozing from his mouth. He had a crazed look in his wolflike eyes, a mixture of fury and defeat.

  Suddenly I heard the wail of sirens. From all directions.

  Dev whirled, almost losing his balance, and faced two police cars that had turned onto Division Street. Flashing lights everywhere.

  I set the gun down on the pavement and raised my hands. Police leaped out of their vehicles, weapons drawn, shouting at both of us, “ Hands in the air! Get down to the ground! ”

  “Don’t shoot! ” I yelled. “Whatever you do, don’t shoot. He’s got my son.”

  One of them knelt behind their car door and pointed his gun at us. “ I said put your hands in the air and get onto the ground! ”

  Nervously, I crouched down, lowering my knees to the surface of the road, hands raised.

  Dev just stood there, ignoring their commands. He shifted back toward me. “Want to know why you’re still alive, doc?” he said, almost smiling.

  My hands were in the air, an eye on the approaching officers. “Yes, I do.”

  He winked. “Because you still have work to do. Things yet to find out.”

  “Tell me what you did with Max, Dev! Please!”

  More police arrived on the scene. Six or seven had now basically encircled us, barking for Dev to get down.

  “Don’t shoot! ” I hollered, raising my palms. A couple of them were approaching, weapons drawn. “He has my son captive.” Then I turned to him again. “What do you mean, Dev, things to find out?”

  “Ever play cards, doc?” the bleeding killer asked.

  “No.” I shook my head. “Not since college.”

  “You oughta.” He stretched a smile.

  A heavyset black policeman came up, pointing his weapon directly at him. He shouted, scaring the wits out of me, “Put your hands above your head and get your ass down. Now! ”

  “You know the jack of hearts?” he said,
turning away from him.

  I nodded.

  “You should. I think you might learn something from it. That card just might have your future in it.”

  The jack of hearts. I had no idea what he was talking about.

  The officer bellowed one last time. “ Get on the fucking ground! ”

  Dev seemed to smile, glancing at them, then back at me. “ Me -my future’s run out.” He finally raised one hand high in the air, as if complying-but with the other, kind of in slow motion, reached under his shirt and came out with a knife. The same one he had waved in my face at the motel. That he had used to cut me.

  I pleaded, “ Dev, don’t .”

  “I think you remember.” He grinned in my direction. “Some people feel I can do just about anything with this thing… The jack of hearts, doc. Don’t forget. One day it’s gonna give you a real smile. The day the devil sprouts horns.”

  He started to come toward me, the knife in his fist, raised high.

  “Don’t do it,” I said, almost helpless, “please.”

  His pace picked up.

  Now the police were really pointing their weapons at him and screaming.

  “Don’t shoot, ” I hollered, “ please don’t shoot! ” getting up and putting out my hands to push them back.

  Suddenly, a couple of them trained their weapons on me. I was almost crying. “Don’t shoot. He’s got my son. Please! ”

  Dev got about five paces away. I never budged. I saw only Maxie’s fate in his mad eyes, slipping into darkness.

  “Don’t! ” I screamed. “ Don’t! Please! ”

  The next thing I heard was a deafening barrage of shots-maybe six, eight, ten echoing pops. Bullets tearing into him, ripping into his clothes with flashes of yellow and orange, the stench of cordite everywhere.

  Dev was blown onto his back, the knife clattering against the pavement. From there, he just sort of raised his head and grinned at me. You still have work to do, doc. Things yet to find out.

  That was all.

  Panicked, I scrambled up to him, against shouted commands to stay where I was. He was making wheezing, guttural noises. Blood seeped out of his mouth.

  “Please, Dev, please. Where’s Maxie?”

  “Damn” was all he said. “I thought I would see him.”

  “See who? ” I asked. “ See who? ” The cops were pulling me away.

  His eyes rolled back and what he grunted last explained it all.

  “Russ.”

  Chapter Seventy-Eight

  A moment later I was surrounded by cops, their weapons still drawn, barking commands I didn’t hear.

  As they pulled me away, it hurt like hell. I told them my brother was dying back inside the apartment and two additional bodies were in there.

  After a quick explanation, they let me go back to the apartment.

  Poor Gabby was slumped at the feet of Susan Pollack, dead. Charlie was resting where I had left him propped up against the wall.

  “Charlie, ” I said, kneeling down next to him. There was blood all over his palm and a lot more congealed on his shirt.

  “Where’s Gabby?” he asked in a hushed voice, staring glassily.

  “She’s here, Charlie, she’s here.” I didn’t want him to see her. I didn’t want that to be his last sight.

  “She’s dead, isn’t she, Jay? I know she’s dead.”

  “Yes,” I said, even as the life slipped away from him. “She is.”

  “Evan didn’t do it, Jay.” His eyes showed a sparkle of vindication. “He didn’t jump. She pushed him. He said he wanted to come back down. To be with us. It was just as I said all along, right?” He smiled. “I’m sorry, little brother, for dragging you into all this.”

  “You didn’t drag me, Charlie.” Tears in my eyes, I squeezed his bloody hand. “I just wanted to help.”

  “Help?” He smiled affectionately. “How could you possibly help me?”

  “I know.”

  “I want to touch her, Jay.” His hand fell to the floor and reached toward her body. “I need to feel her one more time. Please…”

  I pulled Gabby’s arm toward him and he was able to press his fingers over her cold palm.

  “She’s all I have. She’s the only thing in my life I didn’t manage to destroy. Because she loved me, Jay. And Evan too.”

  “I know she did, Charlie. I know.”

  “I hope your boy is okay, Jay. I really do. You know that Evan always liked him… He really-”

  The sound of the phone ringing pierced the room. Suddenly I remembered I had told Kathy to call here. About Max. My heart picked up.

  “I’ll be right back.” Holding my side, I went over to the table where the phone was. Nervously I picked it up. I was so scared, I could barely get a sound out of my mouth. “Kath?”

  “I have him, Jay!”

  “You what?”

  “I have him. Maxie’s okay!”

  “You do? ” My eyes immediately flooded with grateful tears. The words soared through me like the happiest thing I had ever heard, just as they had on my wedding day when Kathy said, “I do,” or when the doctor who delivered Max said, “Dr. Erlich, you’ve got a great-looking boy!”

  “He’s here. He was just on his way back home. From Chris’s. I don’t know what you thought, honey, but Max’s safe. You want to hear his voice?”

  “Yes,” I said tearfully. “ Yes . Put him on.” He’s safe.

  “Hey, Dad.” I heard my boy’s uncomprehending tone, about as droning and impassive as if I had just stuck my head in his room and asked if he had a good day. “What’s going on?”

  “I don’t know, Max, I just-” I put my hand to my face and the tears started to come unchecked. Some were from absolute joy, at knowing everything was somehow going to be okay, at making it through it all alive. And some were from grief. For Evan and Gabby. How it had cost people I loved their lives.

  For Charlie.

  “Dad, you okay?”

  “Yeah, I’m okay,” I said. I caught myself and sniffed against the sobs. “I love you, Max.”

  “I love you too, Dad,” he said, unsure.

  “Put Mom back on.”

  I waited a few seconds, trying to regain my composure.

  “Jay?”

  “Some things have happened here, Kathy. Bad things. And I want you to be protected. Call the police. I’ll be in touch. I promise. Soon .”

  Kathy pressed, scared. “What kinds of things, Jay?”

  I didn’t know why Dev had said what he did, about my son, if he didn’t have him. Or why he had let me live with just a mark on my hand when everyone else had died.

  Or what he meant by You still have work to do, doc. Things yet to find out. The jack of hearts.

  I still felt fear.

  “I love you, honey,” was all I said. “I gotta go. I’ll call you, I promise.”

  I hung up and went back to see Charlie. “He’s safe!” I said, kneeling back down. “Max is okay…”

  But Charlie’s eyes were fixed and still, strands of long, graying hair covering his face, a peaceful stare.

  Peaceful, maybe for the first time ever. His fingers curled warmly around Gabby’s.

  I started to cry.

  “Oh, Charlie…” I sat down next to him and put my arm around his shoulders. I drew his bearded face gently down to me.

  One of the policemen came over. He stood above me and looked at me, as if trying to sort it out. “Your brother?”

  “Yeah.” I nodded. I stroked his face gently and spread the hair out of his eyes. “And my friend.”

  PART IV

  Chapter Seventy-Nine

  I spent the next two days in the hospital, regaining my strength. That and undergoing about a dozen interviews with the police.

  The bullet Dev had put in my side had gone clean through. Nothing vital damaged, like I’d thought. I had a grade-four concussion from the beating he’d given me and a bone was fractured in my jaw, which had to be wired. My hand required twenty stitche
s.

  Other than that I was okay.

  The rest of my time there was taken up with the police. Five people had died, and I was the only one who’d survived. I was deposed by the local detectives maybe a dozen times. Even the FBI.

  I was very sad to learn what had happened to Don Sherwood. Over the past week, I had grown to look at him as a friend, and who knows, maybe he felt the same about me. I realized that if I hadn’t drawn him in against his will, he would still be alive. Of course, that would have been true for any of us-even Charlie, if he had gone early on to the police and told them all he knew. I allowed myself to feel some solace in the suspicion that the detective’s transplanted liver wasn’t altogether holding up and that he had, in the end, felt he was doing something right in being part of all this. I truly wished he was there to see how it all ended and to tell me, for the umpteenth time, that I could head home. In my thoughts, though I am not much of a believer in such things, I imagined maybe he’d been rewarded and had joined his wife and son. Maybe they were a part of his last thoughts-if they weren’t spent cursing me. I pictured that might have made him shake his head just a bit and smile.

  Kathy flew out that next day, after I finally told her about Charlie and Gabby and everything that had happened. She kept Max safe with her parents, under the watch of a private security agent. When she stepped in the room I was in bed, still a little woozy from all the sedatives.

  “Oh, Jay, ” she uttered sadly, looking at my puffed-up face, all black and blue and swollen. She came up to the bed with tears in her eyes and brushed her hand softly against my face.

  “The side hurts more.” I tried to smile.

  “Don’t,” she said. “Don’t say a word. I know.” She sat down on the side of the bed.

  “I’d take you through it all, but my jaw’s been wired shut.”

  She didn’t answer. She didn’t even smile. I just saw the tears well lovingly and the sorrow on her face and I reached out my hand to hers and wrapped her fingers in mine.

  “I’m sorry,” I said.

  She took a breath and nodded. “I’m sorry too.”

  “For what?”

  “Because I judged them.” She meant Charlie and Gabby. “And because I guess I judged you too. I wasn’t there for you, honey, and it almost cost you your life.”